I shot this look last year on July 3, 2017. I’ve come a very long way since then. I haven’t posted much on my blog because I’ve been too busy and I haven’t really taken the time to look inwards and get in touch with myself again. Get in touch with my thoughts, feelings and my present.
It’s been one hell of a roller coaster ride since last July. I’ve gotten different jobs. I’ve grown as an influencer. I’ve also found a different love, one that I know will last forever.
You’ll see me unravel our story here on the blog soon.
At the time that I shot this outfit with Tyler, my best friend Johanna’s husband and an awesome photographer, I was still hung up on this other guy that I knew I could never be with. It was an on-and-off fling with a fickle-minded dude who didn’t know what he wanted. And I was just too absorbed in my own grind to put any more effort into a relationship I knew wouldn’t last.
So I worked myself to the bone. I worked so hard so that I could forget this guy. I kept myself distracted with work every single day and collaborations, photo shoots and drunk brunches with friends. I was desperate to forget about him.
But I didn’t realize that all the frustration I went through with this one guy was all in preparation for me to meet the man of my dreams. A man so caring and loving that I sometimes think it’s too good to be true.
Now that I think about it, I’ve always been headstrong and brave in almost everything I do. I’m ambitious and driven. I always try to get whatever I want. I always try my best to succeed because I want to prove it to myself that I can do this.
But I’ve always been weak in love. I love too hard. I give it everything I have and more. But isn’t that how it’s supposed to be? I have a tendency to risk it all when I’m completely head over heels for someone. And that’s what is currently transpiring in my relationship with the man I believe to be the one.
The Bellagio actually holds quite a few significant memories for me with this love of mine. We had our first kiss here… He took off work early because he knew I was at the Bellagio with a blogger friend of mine who’s one of the strongest boss babes I know.
I remember getting a text message from him saying that he pulled me up on the camera at Jean Philippe while I was getting coffee with my friend (he’s a surveillance operator at Bellagio). I thought he was joking, but he really wasn’t. Strangely, I wasn’t creeped out. I was more so excited and I distinctly remember my heart beating faster and faster as 10:00 PM approached. He told me that he would get off at that time and meet me where we were seated.
And he stuck to his word. He got off work, met me, walked my friend to her Uber and we decided to take a stroll around Bellagio. We looped around the casino three times. I remember walking in my heels thinking that my feet would hurt but the pain didn’t bother me because I was with this incredible guy.
We walked out to the fountains on this cold October night when I only had a dress and a light cardigan on, but the cold didn’t bother me. He held me close after the third fountain show we watched and asked for a kiss. I never felt my heart flutter as much as it did that night. I knew then that he would make me happy.
I never thought I would be so lucky to meet someone like him…