🌹 there is nothing else to worry about. the sun and her flowers are here. 🌹
In the life of a rose
I’ve lived and died 100 times
You’ve watched me open, bloom, wilt, rot
And start over
You watch me again, and again, and again, and again
And each time
My time, measured in light, final breaths, finding, losing
Time, giving so much
And then taking everything away
And I wonder this time, next year
What will it look like?
With my guesses so often, so wrong
I wonder what beginning, what end waits for me
Will I have accepted the things that I cannot change?
And will I have changed the things I cannot accept?
This time, next time, about time 🌹
2017 was a whirlwind that shook my world and changed everything I knew. So many new friends, new experiences, new love, so much to be grateful for. All these changes stemmed from love & heartbreak. I chose to break my own heart by embracing that change can be a good thing. I finally chose to love myself, put myself first and everything followed. I met incredibly talented people to help me realize my passion in fashion blogging. I was able to get on the path to my dream career. I finally found someone I deserved, someone who loves me wholly & unconditionally. I needed a year like 2017. I realized that my potential is limitless. It was transformative. So watch out 2018, I’ve got some great plans for you.
Wishing you all the best, not just in 2018, but in all the years to come.
I used to struggle with insecurity, confidence, and loving myself. I’m not going to lie to you. We all have our insecurities, but in the past, I was very critical of myself. The smallest blemishes would drive me crazy. Somehow, my past experiences shaped me in a way that I can finally love myself for who I am. I can accept myself. I can live with a fearless attitude towards those who would judge me. It feels so liberating to finally love yourself fully.
I had the opportunity to dine at The Black Sheep, a modern Vietnamese fusion restaurant I’ve been eyeing for quite a while now. I came in expecting an amazing array of food on their menu, and let me tell you, they did not disappoint. In fact, The Black Sheep exceeded my expectations. The food was absolutely divine!
I loved how everything on the menu had a bit of an Asian flair. They had melt-in-your-mouth pork belly, crispy Vietnamese imperial rolls, pickled vegetables, octopus in curry sauce, spicy tamarind chicken wings, and one of my personal favorites of the night, beef crisps (reminiscent of Filipino chicharrón)…. And the selection goes on.
A couple months ago, I stood in front of my closet contemplating what I should wear to a photo shoot on the Vegas Strip. Memories of my most recent love still fresh in my mind. I stood there staring at the dress I wore on the last night he and I were truly together. Before all his mistakes, before all his drama, before all the heartbreak.
Optimism (noun): hopefulness and confidence about the future or the successful outcome of something.
This is my mood & mindset. Whenever I catch myself starting to feel overwhelmed or stressed, I turn to positivity and optimism. I simply take a step back and tell myself that most of the things that overwhelm me or stress me out are self-imposed. I do these things to myself. Because I have this self-awareness, I’m able to catch myself from falling into negativity and destructive tendencies.
I have the most amazing friends. They’re always down to have an adventure and try unique experiences! Hence, our badass girls night filled with axe throwing and German beer was conceived and executed. And let me set one thing straight: this is so much better than your typical drunk escapades in a loud and cramped nightclub. We actually got a workout from axe throwing, worked up an appetite, and had delicious beer and German food at Hofbrauhaus.
The best part: we remembered the whole night.
Last month, I had the chance to visit a farmers market & fair at Tivoli Village in Las Vegas with one of my old friends from middle school (yes, middle school! Mandy, we’re getting so old!). We had an incredible day filled with shopping, girl talk, and bottomless mimosas at brunch. Needless to say, we probably took advantage of the bottomless mimosas at Brio a bit too much. And, no, we’re not alcoholics. We just like to enjoy ourselves.
As we walked around the farmers market, we stumbled upon a stall of gorgeous bohemian jewelry and immediately fell in love. The shop’s name is Mai Boho Life, with all the beautiful jewelry designed and handmade by Mai. Needless to say, Mandy and I went nuts on the shop and bought a few pieces. We just fell in love with her silver and moonstone jewelry. Thanks so much, Mai, for telling us all about your jewelry and vision behind your brand. Check out her shop here!
Before I get into more photos, here’s a song I’ve been loving. So glad I discovered Xavier Omar (also known as SPZRKT). His music is so damn good!
Friendships are essential to every human, but for a very long time, I was detached and aloof from the people who cared for me the most. These past few months I’ve been so fortunate to reconnect with so many old friends who I lost contact with over the years. I’m so grateful that they even welcomed me back into their lives.
Surrounding myself with incredible people and being there for each other unconditionally—that’s what makes me truly happy with my friends. They’re always there for me, telling me when I’m wrong and putting me back on track. They have no filter with me and we’re always real with each other. I had a conversation tonight with my best friend, Chloe, and it reminded me of how damn lucky I am to have such beautiful and honest people in my life.
I’ve always considered myself lucky, and I also worked hard for a lot of the opportunities I came across in life. But I wouldn’t be who I am today—a stronger, more candid person—without the support of my amazing family and friends. Positive vibes only.
I’ll be honest – this is the first time in the past couple of years that I’ve felt genuinely happy. I’m fully content with where my life is heading, and I wouldn’t change a thing. Always staying busy, reconnecting with friends, working hard, and moving my life forward – these are the things that fuel my drive every day. 2017 has been very good to me so far, and I intend to run with these positive vibes to create something incredible.
Because of all the things I have to accomplish on a typical busy day, I finally decided to take a more minimalist approach to my wardrobe and personal style. The last thing I need is a distraction. I no longer have the time to stand in my walk-in for hours figuring out which outfit would work for a given occasion so I’ve cut out more than half of my wardrobe because it was time for a change.
I was looking at my Instagram feed the other day (only because I was looking for ways to improve my feed, not because I’m a narcissist…), and I realized that I’ve been wearing such different styles lately. So, I decided to dial it down and go back to basics for a day of retail therapy. I needed something simple and comfortable yet chic. I went with this staple look of mine: my favorite MANGO textured tee, my trusty Calvin Klein Jeans (the only brand of jeans that will work with my nonexistent Asian butt), and a pair of neutral stacked heels from ShoeDazzle (only because I’ve broken them down enough to the point where they’re bearable to wear for a few hours).