Coping with Quarantine

I had a conversation with my best friend Johanna yesterday because I felt an overwhelming sense of dread. It finally hit me that I was currently in furlough from my full-time job and that this quarantine might last longer than I expected. All of Vegas is hurting. All of my friends are hurting. I am hurting.

Everyone is alone together. And a lot of people are living in fear right now. Even my family members don’t want to go to the grocery stores or see each other. It’s so unprecedented, unexpected and unpredictable. All of this is really hard, emotionally, mentally and financially. I felt helpless and useless. I felt like I wasn’t in control. And for someone like me who is always in control of my life, all of this is super uncomfortable.

Johanna told me that I’m feeling uncomfortable and uneasy in quarantine simply because I’m not being myself. I embody the busy working girl, the hustler. The “boss bitch” (in her words, but honestly I don’t feel like a boss bitch most days… just feel like I’m working too hard for my goals, but it makes me happy to work hard). Before shit hit the fan in Vegas, I had three to four events each week, photoshoots on the weekends or weeknights, friendly dates, my full time job, and work when I got home. I was BUSY.

And now, I’m not as busy. But I’m trying to occupy my time with community outreach projects, influencer partnerships, learning how to shoot self portraits, writing, cooking, working with local businesses to help them stay afloat, making TikToks, and rediscovering myself. I’m hoping that once everything returns to my version of normal, that I can learn to keep my balance of self-care and hard-working hustle.

Adjusting to this new normal where I don’t have full control over my life has really messed me up. I’m not going to sugarcoat this. This pandemic is making a lot of people uncomfortable. It’s displacing a lot of us. But I would rather deal with being stuck at home than being a frontliner or first responder. That’s so much harder. I have plenty of friends who work in healthcare and they’re struggling even more than those of us who are stuck at home. That’s why I felt so uncomfortable with not being able to do anything about any of this, with not being able to physically help my community. So I decided to do the most I can from my position at home.

If I come out of this quarantine without having accomplished anything, then that’s 45 to 60 days wasted. Yes, I’m sad that I’m not working full time, I’m not able to execute my travel plans, and I’m not seeing my friends… Everything has been pushed back. I’m in a physical stand-still but I’m not stuck. I keep reminding myself this every single day. I can continue working on myself and other projects that will benefit my future. I need to plan for longevity.

I’ve started interior design projects for my apartment and realizing that doing that in a rental space can be difficult. I’ve started buying more plants. I bought more decor for my living room, and I’m planning my gallery wall for the dining room. I’m getting peel and stick backsplashes to spruce up my kitchen and planning where I can place my cello and guitar that I’ll be renting soon. Quarantine might suck for everyone but we have to find the positive in the situation. We’re in this together. The whole city of Las Vegas is in this together. And we’ll come out of this #VegasStronger.

Shot by Juju in February 2018.

How I Style a White Button-Up for Summer

The classic white button-up shirt is an essential staple piece every person needs in their closet. I have a few in my closet that all have different designs but still keep to the sophisticated and classic silhouette of a crisp, button-up shirt. Here’s how I style one of my white shirts.

I kept the look pretty simple, pairing the white button-up with denim shorts, black sides, and a trendy wide-brimmed straw hat. I tied the shirt at my waist instead of tucking it into the shorts because this top has an oversized fit, which is how I like all of my white button-up shirts.

I shot this set with my friend Juju, who is probably one of the best and most consistent photographers I’ve ever worked with. I remember it being an extremely hot summer day and we decided to shoot at Henderson Pavilion, out in the open heat midday.

I love her bright, clean photography style. And it went really well with my vision for this shoot. We found a patch of lavender bushes and decided to shoot next to it, not knowing that it was filled with bees! Bet you didn’t even know that I was panicking on the inside when you look at these photos because we gotta do everything we can for the ‘gram.

I love styling simple pieces like this because they are so versatile. I really wanted to go for a look that evokes a summer-on-the-coast kind of feel. We wanted it to look like Cali, not Vegas. And I think we pulled it off!

The shirt has a few key details in the sleeves. I love the split in the long sleeves and the bows to keep them together. It adds a sort of uniqueness that you don’t usually see in most white shirts.

Outfit details:
Top from Missguided – similar here
Denim Shorts from Zara
Slides from Missguided – similar here
Straw Hat from Forever 21
Necklaces from Anthropologie
Watch from Fossil

How do you like to style a white button-up?

I’ll see you all next time.

How to Dress In A Vegas Heat Wave

This Vegas heat wave is oddly reminiscent of last year’s even more intense heat. So, I’m taking it back to a look I shot last July but never got the chance to post on the blog.

I haven’t blogged much at all and I’ve been slacking quite a lot, too. I’ve been slacking on my goals and my blog, but that ends here. If anything, this heat wave is keeping me indoors and locked up with the air conditioning blasting. I can finally see what I’ve been missing out on—blogging and developing more content for the site.

I can’t believe how short my hair is here! This was right after the last haircut I’ve had… I plan to grow my hair long, past my shoulders, and I’m still working on it.  This is also the first time I met one of my close friends and photographers, Juju. She opened my eyes to a better me. Doing photo shoots with her made me feel like a more complete, more beautiful person every time. She’s that good at capturing your beauty.

I distinctly remember this day… Hot, muggy, and humid, just like how it is right now in Vegas. So I came up with this breezy summer look styling my favorite Runway Scout wrap top (similar here) knotted at the chest. I paired it with the cutest denim wrap skirt (similar here) I snagged online and a Guess belt that I’ve had since high school. Of course, comfort is key during a heat wave because I get easily irritated when it’s burning hot outside, so my Adidas sneakers were the perfect choice for this look.

To accessorize, I chose my vintage Louis Vuitton bag passed down to me by my mother. This bag is older than me, guys—now, that’s quality! A simple lariat necklace from SHOPEVREN, my MantraBand bangle and my trust Fossil watch finish off the look.

Runway Scout Wrap Top (similar here)
Denim Wrap Skirt (similar here)
Vintage Louis Vuitton bag (similar here)
MantraBand Peace Love Happiness Bangle
Fossil Watch (similar here)

What I Wore: Dainty Wrap, Denim & Fearlessness

I used to struggle with insecurity, confidence, and loving myself. I’m not going to lie to you. We all have our insecurities, but in the past, I was very critical of myself. The smallest blemishes would drive me crazy. Somehow, my past experiences shaped me in a way that I can finally love myself for who I am. I can accept myself. I can live with a fearless attitude towards those who would judge me. It feels so liberating to finally love yourself fully. 

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What I Wore: Blush Bohemian Mood & Optimism

Optimism (noun): hopefulness and confidence about the future or the successful outcome of something.

This is my mood & mindset. Whenever I catch myself starting to feel overwhelmed or stressed, I turn to positivity and optimism. I simply take a step back and tell myself that most of the things that overwhelm me or stress me out are self-imposed. I do these things to myself. Because I have this self-awareness, I’m able to catch myself from falling into negativity and destructive tendencies. 

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