Moving on is never easy, especially when you’ve been with someone for so long. I grew up with this person and planned out a whole life with this person.
We spent four years of our lives together. And it all ended in disappointment, sadness, and deceit. However, I take this as a learning experience. You’ve got to because that’s the only way you will grow from this experience. It was important for me to have a time to grieve. It only took a few days because I had already been grieving for a very long time. I had been grieving the fact that I lost myself for four years. I devoted my life to this person for so long and it all amounted to nothing. All that wasted time, effort, love. But I knew that this outcome was inevitable, so when things crashed down, I already knew exactly what I had to do.
At times like this, not everyone decides to think logically through matters of separating yourself from the situation. But the fact is that reality is what it is. Life is what it is. Time won’t stop for you or anyone. A day that you dwell on the situation is a day wasted and lost. I refused to dwell and decided to keep myself busy so that I’m physically, mentally, and emotionally moving forward. There’s no point in looking back to the past. It’s much better to just let it go.
I didn’t want to be a bitter and petty person just because of this heartbreak. I want to be a better person, to myself and those around me.
I used this experience to motivate me to work for myself, care for myself, and finally find myself again. I spent so long taking care of someone else that I really lost myself. I lost my dreams, my aspirations, my personality. The hardest part is rebuilding my life and doing some soul-searching. The hardest part of this journey is finding myself.
I’ve turned a page in my book and started a new chapter. I feel liberated, refreshed, happy, and free. Feelings I haven’t felt in a very long time. So here’s to new beginnings.